starting over

It's been awhile. To see that the girls weren't even one when I last posted amazes me. It feels like a century ago, a lifetime passed. They will be five in less than a month. Our world has surely changed since then. The hard has changed and our capacity to handle it, too. I still feel blessed beyond compare, but I also feel burnt out by this whole working mom and wife thing. It's definitely difficult and despite what people say, it's impossible to "have it all", at least not in the way it's proposed.

After years of focusing solely on work and my family, I feel like I'm at a crossroads. I have never been good at taking care of myself, I don't have a hobby besides helping other people, and I don't really ever relax or sit still. I'm just not very good at it. So, for 2017, I have made self care a priority. It actually started mid-December and I'm still doing pretty well with it.

My venture into self care has included a variety of lifestyle changes including psychotherapy, something I had done in the past but that has felt needed and right at this time in my life. It has made me explore a variety of things about myself and my life. It has me thinking about where I want to be and what I want to do. I have a great, well-paying job, one that I have worked incredibly hard for, but something feels missing lately. I was once entirely fulfilled by my day-to-day. Now, I feel like I have so much more to give and contribute. I feel like I need to be doing more. But what is more? That's what I'm trying to figure out...

So, I'm starting here. Going to roll up my sleeves and get to blogging. This space was once simply reserved my exploration of my struggles with infertility and then finally being a mom, some of those topics won't ever change, but now, I'm going to also explore other topics that I love, that drive me. Entrepreneurialship, marketing, inspiration, creativity, integrity, passion, drive, advice, the list is crazy long. I hope my readers will continue to get value out of this and I hope to pick up some new ones. I hope we can talk and argue and come up with ways to make the world a better place.

I have tons of lofty ambitions, so I leave you with this, what makes you angry, what can't you live without, what gets you out of bed in the morning, what makes you smile? Do that. Work toward that.

So I leave you with this